So for the past 2 months, I’ve been reminded of something I tried very hard to move past from. The past summer vacation started badly but as it passed it actually became more and more shall I say, tolerable. It wasn’t bad, but it wasn’t good. I guess that’s better than how the past year has been for me. But the past two months, I could say were emotionally exhausting but not as time consuming as the bargaining for the past months.
The past 2 months are proofs that I’ve actually grown stronger. I can finally say that I am genuinely happy after all those months of emotionally killing myself. It feels so great to say (type) that after months of thinking I’d never get here.
What about goodbyes do I hate? It’s the feeling that I’m leaving my comfort zone not knowing whether there are good or bad things to come but hoping that the good will always outweigh the bad. But I now know for sure that goodbye is the option I should take. I’m ready to say goodbye to the past and finally move on so I can welcome the great things that are yet to happen, the wonderful experiences that are set aside for me, and all the new memories I would have. I guess what’s hard for me is that a year ago I never would have thought my life would be like it is now and that I wouldn’t be wanting to have my life the way it was before. Change is always frightening for me, even with my daily meals mind you, but as it turns out change is always good for me, for everybody in fact.
So Dear Old Love, the past years were great, I wouldn’t change anything about those years though it wasn’t always great, but now it’s time to put you where you belong in my life, the past. I sincerely wish you happiness and I can always be here to fulfill my promises to be a great friend forever.
I’ve forgiven everyone who needs to be forgiven and I’ve already put a halt to all the uncertainties in my life. I’m ready.
Forgive this post, I just had to get that out.